This week I have remained distracted. It has been difficult for me to remain focused and have the quiet in my soul that I desire. In honesty, I have been rushing this week. I have rushed to and from places, ideas, conversations and battling thoughts in my own head and heart.
I feel the rush in my spirit. I have had to choose to let things go, because I have not had the capacity this week to do everything on my to do list. A practice I have allowed my self this week has simply been to let go of expectation, perfectionism, keeping up and rushing, for the sake of my whole being.
Having the mindset of wanting to connect with Jesus, look for him, seek him and find him through out my days has changed the way in which I have approached my days, my schedule and my to do list. In looking for ways to connect with Him, I have said no to other things.
This morning, in honesty, I went straight for my texts, emails and unanswered messages. I had conversations and I had no idea what to communicate on this space. I paused and asked the Lord for a song. I did not wake up with one on my mind, as I have much of the last month. A hymn came to mind that is becoming a favorite and is both that which we will listen to together and the words which we will pray.
Listen: O Love that will not let me go
O Love, that wilt not let me go,
I rest my weary soul in Thee;
I give Thee back the life I owe,
That in Thine ocean depths its flow
May richer, fuller be.
O Light, that followest all my way,
I yield my flickering torch to Thee;
My heart restores its borrowed ray,
That in Thy sunshine’s blaze its day
May brighter, fairer be.
O Joy, that seekest me through pain,
I cannot close my heart to Thee;
I trace the rainbow through the rain,
And feel the promise is not vain
That morn shall tearless be.
O Cross, that liftest up my head,
I dare not ask to fly from Thee;
I lay in dust life’s glory dead,
And from the ground there blossoms red
Life that shall endless be.